Snarky Tumor
Monday, June 18, 2007
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There was a period, lasting al? ? r mo? , where I was convinced ? if nobo? as looking at me, I would vanish? />
The? ? ting thing is that if you unwere, so to spea? ? ? ion becomes--are? aware of your n? istence?? an>
Y yeah, and if all th? uff ? ? ? to you when? 're not being ob? ed actually ? ened or if it was all false memo? ? />
B? hen ? e do the false m? ies come from?
Who knows? Aliens, God, the? ernment,? ? ? ain.? be from ? ninety percent ? nobody ? ? />
You know, it's be? roven that it's ? ? hat you ? use ten? ? of ? brain. ? ? ? ion of how many area? e activated at any given moment,? it's al? ed.
Re? ? I didn't know ? ? t th? nei? ? e nor there, I g? . The thing ? really got me is--how d? ove ? ? ? uall? ist while you're uno? ved? The only ob? er in that case ? ? elf, which is basically the ? t reliable o? ver ? ible? />
Maybe? do it by changi? ? hing whi? ? e alone. The location of a mug, for example. Tha? ? that you we? here and did somethiand ? ? e yo? ill ? t when nobody's watching? pan>
See, tha? ? ? ? ? ? sed up I? in ? e days. I never ? ght of it th? ay. ? ess it could? k. O? wise, you're? uming th? ? niverse reco? es i? idual in? ion and ? ? sly ? it into practice in ord? o mainta? he i? ion ? ? erved co? eality. Whic? sil.right?
Right, and I say that emphatically.? 's move on. For ? ? ? ? , you went in th? posite direction, be? ing ? the? ire ? erse? ? ually contained ? our head, and you we? he only real? elligence. What prompted that?
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I g? it was ? y rebellion against my b? ior duri? he months before then. I? ? p getting se? ly dosed? h acid by someone who though? ? pretty funny. During th? ip, I was forced to really look at myself and the sheer...pa? ic need I had to be ? ? eopl? o be seen. A? hen I...? ess you could say I ed around the re? ? rve and ? like I'd gotten? eek ? ? ? orld? im, and saw myself. And the more? hought a? it, the? e I realized that the entire uni? e re? ? contained i? head, i? bra? o be? ? ? e, a? hat ? ything I? ? ed had been processe? my brain. It re? ? n't much of ? retch between that a? hinking ? I l? ? ? ried the? mos ? nd i? cranium? />
That's a ? ? ? ting viewpoint. Technically,? 're not too far off--since f? ? ? niverse ? erceived? ough? senses, which i? ? sed and recorded by our brains, we all do, in a ? e, c? around whole un? ses in each ur m? . In that sense, I can certa? und? and ? e you were at th? ? in ? life. B? hy d? ou begin behavin? though we all, literally, e? ed inside your head?? an>
Why did I sta? hinking ? I'd? appe? hen nobo? as looking?
Yeah? />
What ? ped you out ? hat?? an>
W? aid I snappe? t of it?
Well, you ? ped killing ? le, ? he assumption goes..? pan>
Yeah, you're right a? that. I guess I? ? ? hen I thought of "Think glob? , act locally." ? ? when I realized tha? didn't ? ? hat was real or wasn't--the key was ? to acce? hatever was ? ening and behave accordi? ? st go wi? he flow.
Go? hilosophy. So you're? ? ? s normalized? ? pan>
More or ? ? />
Y? e not co? ned ? t the fa? hat you experienced no legal con? ences for your actio? ? oever? A? he effects of that on yo? syche?
Fra? , what I am is grateful. I'm ove? ? . Never again. I'm glad I never got caught, because ? ? ld have real? ? ed m? . No? top talking. The other nice,? mal, coffee-buying f? are looking at ? tran? , and I really need ? job? />
Please don't be offended, okay?
? ? />? an>
The? ? ting thing is that if you unwere, so to spea? ? ? ion becomes--are? aware of your n? istence?? an>
Y yeah, and if all th? uff ? ? ? to you when? 're not being ob? ed actually ? ened or if it was all false memo? ? />
B? hen ? e do the false m? ies come from?
Who knows? Aliens, God, the? ernment,? ? ? ain.? be from ? ninety percent ? nobody ? ? />
You know, it's be? roven that it's ? ? hat you ? use ten? ? of ? brain. ? ? ? ion of how many area? e activated at any given moment,? it's al? ed.
Re? ? I didn't know ? ? t th? nei? ? e nor there, I g? . The thing ? really got me is--how d? ove ? ? ? uall? ist while you're uno? ved? The only ob? er in that case ? ? elf, which is basically the ? t reliable o? ver ? ible? />
Maybe? do it by changi? ? hing whi? ? e alone. The location of a mug, for example. Tha? ? that you we? here and did somethiand ? ? e yo? ill ? t when nobody's watching? pan>
See, tha? ? ? ? ? ? sed up I? in ? e days. I never ? ght of it th? ay. ? ess it could? k. O? wise, you're? uming th? ? niverse reco? es i? idual in? ion and ? ? sly ? it into practice in ord? o mainta? he i? ion ? ? erved co? eality. Whic? sil.right?
? an>
I g? it was ? y rebellion against my b? ior duri? he months before then. I? ? p getting se? ly dosed? h acid by someone who though? ? pretty funny. During th? ip, I was forced to really look at myself and the sheer...pa? ic need I had to be ? ? eopl? o be seen. A? hen I...? ess you could say I ed around the re? ? rve and ? like I'd gotten? eek ? ? ? orld? im, and saw myself. And the more? hought a? it, the? e I realized that the entire uni? e re? ? contained i? head, i? bra? o be? ? ? e, a? hat ? ything I? ? ed had been processe? my brain. It re? ? n't much of ? retch between that a? hinking ? I l? ? ? ried the? mos ? nd i? cranium? />
That's a ? ? ? ting viewpoint. Technically,? 're not too far off--since f? ? ? niverse ? erceived? ough? senses, which i? ? sed and recorded by our brains, we all do, in a ? e, c? around whole un? ses in each ur m? . In that sense, I can certa? und? and ? e you were at th? ? in ? life. B? hy d? ou begin behavin? though we all, literally, e? ed inside your head?? an>
Why did I sta? hinking ? I'd? appe? hen nobo? as looking?
Yeah? />
What ? ped you out ? hat?? an>
W? aid I snappe? t of it?
Yeah, you're right a? that. I guess I? ? ? hen I thought of "Think glob? , act locally." ? ? when I realized tha? didn't ? ? hat was real or wasn't--the key was ? to acce? hatever was ? ening and behave accordi? ? st go wi? he flow.
More or ? ? />
Y? e not co? ned ? t the fa? hat you experienced no legal con? ences for your actio? ? oever? A? he effects of that on yo? syche?
Fra? , what I am is grateful. I'm ove? ? . Never again. I'm glad I never got caught, because ? ? ld have real? ? ed m? . No? top talking. The other nice,? mal, coffee-buying f? are looking at ? tran? , and I really need ? job? />
Please don't be offended, okay?
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